Wednesday, April 22, 2020

Thunder Rise


During the #coronavirus pandemic, I am regularly posting stories and selections from my published collections and novels. Read for free! Reading is the best at this time!

This is the fourth free offering: An excerpt from “Thunder Rise: A Novel of Terror,” my first published book and the first volume of the Thunder Rise trilogy..



CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR

Friday, October 10

Maureen McDonald was appreciably worse.

She was back in Bostwick’s office this morning, two weeks and two days after her last visit. Her mother was on the verge of panic. Bostwick didn’t blame her. If she’d been his child, he’d have been there, too.

Because things didn’t look good. Things didn’t look good at all. Maureen’s temperature was 103.8, and she was enveloped by a faint, sweaty odor, an odor not dissimilar to garlic—the exact same odor, Bostwick thought with a chill, that terminally ill patients get as their days are winding down. She was still congested, still occasionally experiencing sharp abdominal pains (“like a knife,” she said, “stickin’ in my stomach.”). Every lymph node he touched was swollen and tender.

But he hadn’t needed an examination to conclude there was something really frightening going on with this child. He’d sensed that the instant she’d come into his office, shuffling listlessly, her head down, her shoulders hunched, as if the world no longer held any interest for her. A little more than two weeks ago she’d been under the weather, but if you peeled back the aches and pains a bit, you could still see her spirit, alive and well. Now there was barely a hint of that spirit. Now her eyes had a lifeless, distant glaze to them, as if she’d grown tired of seeing. The eyes especially bothered him. He’d learned there was more than a grain of truth to the old adage that eyes were windows to the soul.


The original cover: William Morrow, 1989.
If it hadn’t developed so quickly, he would have suspected cancer . . . or AIDS.

He hated what he had to subject her to, but there was no choice. It was time to go on a medical fishing expedition.

“Can you be in Pittsfield this afternoon?” he asked Susie when her daughter had shuffled back to the waiting room to claim the lollipop her eyes said she didn’t care if she had or not.

“Yes,” Susie said.

“Good. I want you at Berkshire Medical Center at one. I’ll call and make the arrangements. She’s going to need additional tests.”

“What kind of tests?” Susie sounded as if she’d just been sentenced.

“Blood tests. X-rays. Possibly a liver scan. I’ll have a better idea after consulting with Dr. Miller. He’s an internist at Berkshire Medical. Also a personal friend. A very capable physician.”

“Doctor?”

“Yes?”

“What do you think it is?” Bostwick could tell she was close to losing control. His eyes avoided hers, and the examining room suddenly seemed too small, too quiet, too warm. He’d been here before. Oh, yes. Ordering tests for suspected leukemia cases evoked this mood. Getting positive test results back and delivering that horrible news evoked it, too.

“I don’t know,” he said. “And I’m being completely candid. I just don’t know.”

“You don’t think it’s a cold, do you?” Susie said, allowing herself only the faintest trace of hope. 

“Like a really long cold?”

“No. Not anymore.”

“Is it a—a virus?”

“It could be. We’ll know better after this afternoon. I’m ordering her workup stat.”

Susie was silent. In the last two minutes Bostwick had seen the color drain from her cheeks. “You don’t think it’s—you don’t think it’s cancer, do you?” She pronounced that word superstitiously, as if saying it too loudly might jinx her.

“I’d be very surprised if it were. It’s very rare that cancer—any kind of cancer—develops so quickly.”
“It’s been two months almost.”

“And that seems like a long time—and it is, in terms of what you’ve been through—but disease-wise, two months is a snap of the fingers.”

“Doctor?”

“Yes?”

“She’s going to be all right, isn’t she?”

In all his years of medicine—years in which he had had a distressing amount of practice in delivering the grimmest possible news—he’d never learned how to answer this question without feeling like the world’s biggest asshole.

“I hope so,” he said. “Now I want you to get going. The sooner you’re there, the quicker you’ll be home.”

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For two weeks he’d been trying to piece things together.

Something’s going on. Something I’ve never seen in almost a decade of family practice.

That much was indisputable now. This wasn’t your basic infection taking the scenic tour through the local youth, a bout of unusually stubborn rhinovirus that sooner or later would be put off the bus by said youths’ immune systems. It had gone on too long. On Morgantown’s scale, this was as close to a public health crisis as anything in Bostwick’s experience.

Because there were too many sick kids out there. Not a townful, or a schoolful, but seventeen kids (he’d counted) with no history of chronic disease or unusual susceptibility who all of a sudden were sick as dogs. Seventeen kids, up from a dozen two weeks ago, all with a common set of symptoms, all with parents getting more uptight by the minute. Some—roughly half, Bostwick calculated—seemed to be getting progressively sicker. A smaller group appeared to be on some kind of strange disease seesaw: flat on their backs one day, chipper as you please the next. A couple, Jimmy Ellis among them, seemed to have recovered and not relapsed—if that was the word. There seemed to be no rhyme or reason.

For two weeks he’d puzzled over it, so intensely that his wife and children had started to comment. For two weeks he’d done his homework. Taken out the case folders each evening and gone over every iota of information with a magnifying glass. He’d done follow-ups on every child, which had meant house calls in a couple of instances. Maureen was the first he’d referred to Berkshire Medical. He knew she would not be the last.

It could be almost anything.

That’s what was beginning to give him chills.

It could be bacterium. It could be virus. It could be some kind of obscure but cumulatively lethal poison. It could be something in the water at school. It could be something in the food. Something in the air. Something well documented in the public health texts. Something utterly unprecedented.
It could be the bloody Martians, for all he knew, dropping down to field-test their latest extraterrestrial bug on the unsuspecting inhabitants of Planet Earth.

If he’d been unable to pinpoint the cause, he’d at least uncovered some potentially valuable common denominators. All the children were prepubescent. All except for two preschoolers went to Morgantown Elementary, and both those preschoolers had older siblings who did. All lived on the same side of town, the side near Thunder Rise. There was something else, too, although he wasn’t sure how much significance he should attach to it. Nightmares. Each kid had reported frequent nightmares. Probably the fevers would explain that. Kids with temps not only had nightmares but could actually hallucinate.

So could brains poisoned with certain chemicals.

“Will you call me as soon as you get the results?” Susie asked on her way out.

“Immediately,” Bostwick promised.

“Thank you, Doctor.”

For what? he wanted to say. For telling you in so many words that your kid’s slowly going down the tubes, and I don’t have a clue why? For suggesting between the lines that if somebody doesn’t come up with something soon, little Maureen McDonald could actually . . . die? And as things stand at this very moment there’s not a blessed thing we can do about it?

“You’re welcome,” he said, and again he had to avoid eye contact. He felt defeated.
When she had closed the door, he picked up the phone and called the Boston headquarters of the Massachusetts Department of Public Health.

“Epidemiology,” he told the operator.

His question was if anything like this had been reported recently anywhere else in the state. The answer was not comforting. The answer was no.





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Monday, April 20, 2020

FREE READING! Landing page for ALL the free reads during #coronavirus


During the #coronavirus pandemic, I am regularly posting stories and selections from my published collections and novels. Read for free! Reading is the best at this time!


Previous free reads

-- Monday, April 13
Not Just Traces of Me, a short story


-- Thursday, April 16
To Be Cold, Like Trees, a short story
Men and Speed, a book excerpt
https://gwaynemiller.blogspot.com/2020/04/men-and-speed.html




-- Wednesday, April 20, 2020
Thunder Rise, a book excerpt.




-- Sunday, April 26, 2020
Car Crazy, a book excerpt.
https://gwaynemiller.blogspot.com/2020/04/car-crazy.html




-- Wednesday, April 29
Summer Love, a screenplay.
https://gwaynemiller.blogspot.com/2020/04/summer-love.html




-- Friday, May 8
The Beach That Summer, a short story.
https://gwaynemiller.blogspot.com/2020/05/the-beach-that-summer.html



(Should you wish to purchase any of my collections and books, fiction or non-fiction, visit www.gwaynemiller.com/books.htm)


Men and Speed



During the #coronavirus pandemic, I will be regularly posting stories and selections from my published collections and novels. Read for free! Reading is the best at this time!


  
This is the third free offering: An excerpt from "Men and Speed: A Wild Ride Through NASCAR's Breakthrough Season," my sixth book (and fifth non-fiction). 


Preface: Speed



         Until one day in the spring of 2001, I thought I understood speed. For more than a year, I'd been traveling NASCAR's elite Winston Cup circuit, which features some of America's most exciting automobile racing. I'd experienced the sensation of racecars whizzing by at over 200 miles per hour. I'd gotten to know drivers, mechanics, and builders of cars. I'd spent many days with Jack Roush, an engineer, ex-racer, and racecar owner who had built a $250-million empire on speed. Roush raced four cars in Winston Cup competition, more than anyone.
         That spring day, Jack handed me the keys to one of the Stage 3 Mustang convertibles he sells on the open market. It wasn't a racecar -- but it was close, a low-slung, super-charged street machine that top ends at some 170 miles per hour and hits sixty in an astonishing 4.3 seconds. The sedan I ordinarily drove was a slug compared to it, a fact that was evident from the moment I gave it the gas.
         One touch and the Mustang rocketed forward, pushing me back into my seat. It felt good, and inviting: what would this car do if I put the pedal to the floor? Perhaps I would learn. I had joined Jack on an early leg of The History Channel's Great American Race, a cross-country competition involving antique cars. His new Mustang obviously couldn't enter, but Jack was sending it along as a VIP vehicle -- and he'd given me the wheel for an entire day, a trip that would take us on a winding route from Knoxville, Tennessee, to Lexington, Kentucky.
         Tempted though I was, I exercised caution as we started off through the morning commute. I didn't want to risk damaging Jack's car, which retails for more than $50,000 -- nor embarrass myself with a man who had won many championships. But the sun shone, the traffic thinned, and we started down a long stretch of open highway. Almost unconsciously, I began to lean into the gas, until we were doing eighty. The car handled like the proverbial dream, and I experienced a flutter inside my chest whenever I passed someone. And even if they were booking it, I passed, without a whisper of protest from Jack's 360-horsepower V-8 engine.
         Our route took us from highway to narrow mountain roads. This was wild country: steep inclines, precipitous ravines, deadman's curves, a place better suited to moonshining than automobiling. We came up behind one of the antique cars, traveling at a sober speed, and I backed off; the road hooked abruptly to the left, and I had only about a hundred yards of clearance. Anything could have been around that corner.
         "You can pass him, you know," said Jack, a twinkle in his eye. His friend, Victor Vojcek, another ex-racer, who was riding in back, agreed.
         I stood on the gas. We shot from twenty to sixty in about two seconds -- and blew by the old classic with room to spare. The flutter intensified to an adrenaline rush and I craved more. I was entering the zone.
         I had a few close calls on those mountain roads, including nearly running us into a ditch -- but instead of slowing me down, flirting with disaster produced the opposite effect. By now, I felt invincible. Other defining characteristics of my life (a wife and three dependent children, for example) had lost relevance. My world now was a cool car and blacktop, and what a glorious world it was.
         Late afternoon found us on the highway again: specifically, an interstate that leads into Lexington. Rush hour traffic was building. I asked Jack, who married a Kentucky woman, if the state police here were tough -- and he said they were worse than in Ohio, notorious for its speeding tickets. Deciding to be vigilant but not dawdling, I started passing again. I was back in the zone.


        
         Suddenly, we were alongside a shiny black Pontiac Firebird -- a fast car, but surely no match for a Roush Stage 3. A man in his early twenties was driving, and he grinned over at us. Jack surmised that he was a street racer who probably had something other than an assembly-line engine under his innocent-looking hood. I only knew that when I attempted to pass, he powered up.
         I stood on the gas. For an instant, we led -- but the young man roared ahead. I leaned into the gas a little deeper and we took him. Back and forth, trading the lead, until we'd hit 90. I'd reached my limit. I eased off, and the young man disappeared in the traffic ahead of me.
         "You didn't have to let him take you," Jack said. "You had fifty horsepower on him."
            I was humiliated. We were about ten miles outside of Lexington now and the highway was clogged, but I silently vowed to hunt down that Firebird -- I couldn't get the image of the young man's triumphant smile as he'd zoomed away out of my head. Jack could see what I was up to, but he figured we were done.
         Jack was wrong. Taking chances a man of forty-seven never should, I tore through the traffic -- and there was the Firebird, on my right door.
         I punched the gas and we shot ahead. Caught off guard, the young man lagged -- but only momentarily. I wove through the commuters, now left, now right, the young man all the while gaining. Damn if he didn't have some kind of engine under his hood.
         I was totally in the zone now -- knuckles white, sweat on my forehead, the flutter in my chest a narcotic pounding. I could see with a clarity I'd never before experienced, and my reflexes were dangerously sharp -- but sound had virtually ceased, as if they'd dropped the soundtrack out of the movie. I think Jack said something about showing no mercy now, but I didn't need Jack to light the way. I punched the pedal to the floor, and we finally smoked the Firebird. The speedometer read 120, or so Jack later informed me.
         Thank God the Stage 3 was equipped with race brakes and race suspension -- traffic had slowed to a clot, and I was about to wreck us. I slammed on the brakes, and we came back from 120 faster than we'd gotten there, with nary a wiggle. Jack gave me a high-five, and I allowed as how you'd become a millionaire if you could bottle the feeling I had right then. I hadn't just gone fast -- I'd won, and the high of winning was more blissful than any drug.
         We exited the highway shortly thereafter, and as we stopped at a red light like the good citizens we were once again, the Firebird pulled up next to us. As it happened, the young man had his teenage brother along for the ride, and they both congratulated me on an excellent race. I asked if they were into NASCAR, and they said they were. But they hadn't made careful note of the man sitting beside me -- and when I introduced Jack Roush, they went crazy. "No way!" shouted the brother. "We raced Jack Roush!" said the driver. Turns out the boys liked Mark Martin, Jack's most popular Winston Cup driver.
         Jack invited them to follow us into downtown Lexington, where a crowd of several thousand awaited the Great American Race cars. The twenty-four-year-old driver, Jeremiah Staab, told us about his Firebird, which he had indeed configured to street race, and his eighteen-year-old brother, Jakob, let on as how he'd just graduated from high school. Jack autographed some Roush Racing hats for the boys, who lived in the hills of eastern Kentucky, and then we all posed for pictures. I was a calm and rational being once again, but I could still feel a trace of something mighty good inside my body. I later asked Jack about the effect of introducing such a substance into a young person's veins.
         "When the sap is high in the tree, oh man!" he said. "It's something that really drives you. It's just incredible. It spins you off into that business."
         Speed entices, and for the characters in this book, it proved a potent addiction from the earliest taste.



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NEXT UP: An excerpt from my first book, "Thunder Rise: A Novel of Terror," first book in the Thunder Rise trilogy.

Monday, April 13, 2020

To Be Cold, Like Trees

During the #coronavirus pandemic, I will be regularly posting stories and selections from my published collections and novels. Read for free! Reading is the best at this time!

This short story, the second free offering, is also from the collection "Since the Sky Blew Off: The Essential G. Wayne Miller Fiction, Vol. 1" It was first published in Alfred Hitchcock's Mystery Magazine in 1987 -- one of my first big sales -- but I daresay it has stood the test of time. Nuclear holocaust was the fear then; today, a viral equivalent...


TO BE COLD, LIKE TREES
I look at the trees outside my window and I think how many centuries they have survived, how many summers they have blossomed with life, how many Septembers they have worn fire, how many winters, like this winter, they have been skeletal and cold and perfectly . . .

... content.

I look across the empty street at the factory and I remember back so long to when it was alive, to when there were workers on all three shifts, and the parking lot was full, and chimneys spewed smoke, and lunch sirens blew, and the trucks and boxcars ringed it like a fortress under siege.

Now the factory is cold, like the trees, and shadowy, like the hills beyond, and black at night except for a single light some fool leaves on in an attempt to keep the vandals away. Down the street is an antique shop, and there are desks and chairs and rusting bed frames still piled on the front porch, but it is closed, too. The win­dows are boarded with plywood, and the weeds are wild and thick where once there was impeccable lawn.


Only the grocery still opens for business, weekdays nine to six, Saturdays nine to noon, as it has for over a century. Of course, they're going to close that, too. Hank McArthur, whose family's run it from the start, said so himself. Told me he's keeping his stock up only through the end of black-powder season and then he's putting the for-sale sign up and moving over the mountains past the reservoir to Amherst, where, he assures me, times are better.


Why don't you come along? he said.

You could stay with me at my sister's until you find something of your own. She's got a mean tongue, Sis has, and she don't tolerate drinking, but you're no drinker anyways, so why not? You've got your Social Security and that's good anywhere a body chooses to be, so can you just tell me, why not?

And I nodded my head, and said as how I would consider it, but I won't. There are still some things to do in this town. Still some whisperings I must pay attention to.

I stare at the trees tonight, and I look at the factory, and I remember something I read once in one of those glossy magazines before my eyes went bad. It was a story about how many H-bombs there are in the world today, and how many times over they could turn this planet into a radioactive graveyard, and how many people would die, and how many animals would be incinerated, and how many of God's lovely trees would be vaporized, and how long the sky would remain the color and temperature of frozen charcoal. I saw one of those bombs once.

It was lashed to an army flatbed and it was rolling through the Nevada desert in the middle of an armed convoy one Sunday evening late in 1947. I was a staff sergeant, and I was one of only a dozen guards with the necessary clearance to be out there on that range, and I had been sworn to secrecy, and I have kept that secret to this day. We hauled that thing off into the setting sun and the next morning at the crack of dawn, there was a tremendous flash followed by a mushroom cloud and a sound like the devil himself announcing the end of the earth. Five or more miles away, the sagebrush and pine were reduced to ash. Three hours ' later, we could see traces of the cloud, still faintly shaped like a mushroom from an opium-eater's dream.

And I wanted to scream, but I didn't. Not out loud.

Today is Christmas Eve.

It's almost midnight now, almost the Savior's Day, and I sit here as I have nightly since summer, when the trees were so green.

Outside, it is spitting snow. The wind is right, blowing, as it is, toward the reservoir that services two million people in a metro­politan area a hundred miles to the southeast. I suppose somewhere, probably over the hills there in Amherst, young children are dreaming their sugarplum dreams. The wind is not blowing their way, no, but toward the scientists and politicians and generals and industrialists whose existence is nourished, by nightmares.

They call me, these Vermont trees.

I sit here in my bedroom, the window open, the factory fading in and out of the snow, and they call me. I cough blood again, and my whole body shakes, and my head feels deliciously light, my stomach painfully heavy, and I wonder once more if this disease that consumes my insides began that Monday morning in 1947, or if it started later, in the bowels of that factory, where we manu­factured clothing out of asbestos.


Like all the others, this is an academic issue now.

I take another sip of codeine and I feel ready.

Soon, I am going to the cellar to remove from a wall safe the lead canister that has been hidden there so long. I will put on my winter coat then and step out into the night, loading the canister onto a child's rusted wagon I happened upon near the antique shop. Pulling that wagon, I will cross the street to the factory and go inside through a back door, the one closest to the hills and the trees. After forty years, I know that door well. I will carry a flash­light and I will find my way down deep into the basement, a stuffy and fume-filled place where my little fire can get its best running start. I shall laugh at the absentee owner and his silly light, and I shall disarm the sprinklers by closing a valve the size of a grown man's skull. I will hum a nameless tune and I will pour kerosene everywhere through that rat-infested cellar and when I am ready to leave, I will drop a match. Kerosene burns slower than gas, and I will be in no rush, no rush at all.

I shall climb.

I will use the back stairway, the one where I first kissed the young mill girl who became my wife and mother of my children, both of whom were stillborn. I will probably struggle with that canister, but I will make it to the top, I am sure. I will go to the middle of the roof, the place I expect the fire to be most fierce, the smoke most thick, and I will pry the top off that canister. For the first time since 1947, I shall see plutonium dust. There is almost a pound of it, and I am not ashamed to say it was stolen by me and a long-dead man of rank who had vague hopes of someday becoming rich or famous with it.

Then I will go to the edge, six granite and iron-beam stories high, and I shall check the wind one final time to be sure it is still blowing strongly toward the reservoir.

Then I shall breathe. Deep, long breaths, hale and hearty with the raw power of the new season. At last I shall sit, staring off into trees, and I shall wait, listening to the whispers:

To be cold, like trees.

To be hot, like bombs.

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Saturday, April 11, 2020

Not Just Traces of Me

During the #coronavirus pandemic, I will be regularly posting stories and selections from my published collections and novels. Read for free! Reading is the best at this time!


NOT JUST TRACES OF ME
He remembered it so well.

The bridge over the bay. The shipyard, quiet and empty at this hour. The clam shack, plywooded until spring. The turn into park. The access road, freshly plowed. And the pine trees. A wall of pines, blocking his view of the ocean. But he could hear it.

He drove with the window down, and he could hear it, boiling and swirling against the rocks.

"This is where I will be," she had said. "Not just traces of me, but me. Me, Donny. Me."

On down the road, passing no one, the radio off. Past the refreshment stand to the edge of the parking lot, buried in white drifts. Stopping the car, silencing the engine, getting out and standing, his breath enveloping him like steam. A cloudless sky, full of stars, and dominated by a frozen moon. Starting toward the beach, his footsteps puncturing the crusty snow with a sound like eggshells being crushed.

He remembered.

The two of them, there between the rocks, newly met, crazy in love. Kissing, and whispering, and then his hand under her suit, and then both of them unable to wait, stripping, making desperate love that leaves their bodies shaking and soaked in sweat.

Summer, and no end to time, no beginning, just him with her on a deserted beach on the sun-drenched coast of Maine.

"This is where I will be," she said that first they when they had dressed, and were moving arm-in-arm back to her car.

"I will linger here for you."

He walked.

The sound of the ocean, louder, angrier as if battered the granite rocks, laminated with icy spray.

Out of the parking lot and onto the boardwalk, which the wind had swept of snow. Closer now.

Through the dunes, the beach plums bearing last autumn's shriveled fruit. Stepping onto sand. Stepping over dead crabs. Driftwood. A rotted can. Tangles of seaweed, spit out by the cleansing surf. South, to where the rocks began.

Climbing now, the ocean pounding in his ears. Over the ridge and down to sand again.

It was her theory.

He never expected to have to test it. He expected them to go on forever.

Jokingly, she called it the Theory of Endurability, a play on Einstein’s words.

She did not laugh at the concept. It was impossible to scientifically prove, of course. You either believed it or you didn't.

She did.

She said she felt it in her soul. She said it was a part of nature, the most mysterious part. She said that an echo of every event lingers forever in the places where it occurs. Visit a battlefield, she said, and if you are patient – if you will give them their chance – you will feel the soldiers. You will hear their weapons, smell their gunpowder, see their dead and their dying. Every detail of the battle, no matter how insignificant or long ago, still lingering.

Still faintly echoing, on and on through eternity, like light from a star a billion light years away.

It wasn't only a function of war, she'd explained. Wasn't only a function of tragedy, although tragedy almost certainly left the stronger imprint.

Every conversation, every handshake, every walk through a park, every plunge into a pool, every baby's smile, every mother's hug, every lover's summertime kiss on the sun-drenched coast of Maine – echoes of it all, lingering forever, like some kind of metaphysical fingerprint that cannot be erased.

This was their beach.

It had been four years, a very different season, but he was sure of it. "Our place," she'd called it.

Rocks to both sides, and tucked in there between, a sliver of bleached sand. Such a secluded spot.

Where he had had her that very first time, had her with no blanket, just him on her on sand, their hearts exploding out of their ribcages. He closed his eyes and he could see her, just as she'd promised, could feel her engine-hot body, the incredible taste of salt on her skin, his mind and his senses crazy all over again. In his trousers, his masculinity stirred, and it was as if she was really there, opening herself to him, glistening

Do not wait.

She'd come to him nightly in his dreams the last two weeks – the last two weeks of December – and that, only that. had been her message.

You know where I will be.

And then her final words, just last night, only hours before beginning his drive east from Chicago, where he'd settled after her drowning.

I want you, Donny. I want you now.

He was at water's edge.

The waves foamed at his feet, soaking his boots. Ahead, the ocean. To both sides, the rocks.
Above, moon and so many millions of stars, impossible to count.

He started with his gloves. His wool cap. Then his coat. One arm, then the other, folding it and placing it in a careful bundle on the beach. He took his watch and tossed it ahead of him, into the water, black and noisily restless.

Only once had she indicated it was possible to be more than a trace.

You could exist like that forever, she'd said, but only if you plan ahead.

He unbuttoned his shirt and dropped it to the sand.

The wind caught it, whipping it along the beach until it snagged on rocks. He felt that wind on his bare chest. It had an edge like a blade, but he did not mind. Did not notice. Everything he was feeling now was concentrated lower in his body. He stooped to get at his boots. His fingers already were beginning to numb, and he had difficulty with the laces, but eventually he loosened them. His socks. His belt. His fly. His trousers falling down around his ankles in a heap.

He stepped out.

Now he saw her, a hundred yards out, dancing just above the waves, the moon casting silvery shadows across the whitecaps.

I love you with all of my heart, she'd said the last time he saw her. I will love you forever.

He walked seaward, deeper and deeper, eager for her embrace.

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Sunday, February 23, 2020

Starting 9th year of Story in the Public Square (And, yes, we love telling our origins story. Hey, we ARE storytellers!)

Eight years ago today, on February 23, 2012, I joined Jim Ludes for coffee in a shop in downtown Newport, Rhode Island. I had met Jim the previous October 16, 2011, when, as the newly arrived (from Washington) director of the Pell Center at Salve Regina University, he had kindly hosted the launch singing and reception for my biography of Claiborne Pell, “An Uncommon Man: The Life and Times of Senator Claiborne Pell.” The event, at the Pell Center on Bellevue Avenue, was a fine success. Kristine Hendrickson, Salve’s Associate Vice President University Relations/CCO, also came for that coffee. She, too, had been instrumental in the Pell bio launch.

Full house at the "An Uncommon Man" launch party.

During the hour or so that we met for coffee that winter day, Jim discussed his ideas for building the Pell Center into a robust place, what he now describes thusly: “The Pell Center for International Relations and Public Policy's programs are designed to generate new ideas, to expand public understanding of important issues and, ultimately, to help the public and its leaders make better decisions. Working with students and faculty, we don't just study the world, we try to change it.”

I, in turn, discussed my desire to extend my storytelling into the academic world.

Seemed like a good fit.

And so Story in the Public Square was born.

Within a few months, we had formed a partnership between the Pell Center and The Providence Journal, where I was and still am a staff writer. I was named a visiting fellow and director of Story in the Public Square, and Jim and I -- with Office and Events Manager Teresa Haas, then-communications assistant Mia Lupo, and some Salve work-study students -- got down to work. We had the full support of the great Sister Jane Gerety, who retired last year after a decade as Salve president. Her successor, Dr. Kelli J. Armstrong, has been equally supportive. Thanks to both presidents!

One of the first Story events was an address I gave on May 16, 2012, to the 2012 Pell Scholars. Sister Jane was present at the dinner, as was Nuala Pell, Claiborne’s widow.

©Marianne Lee / Courtesy of Salve Regina University
 The 2012 Pell Scholars, with Mrs. Nuala Pell, center; me, behind her; and Dr. Khalil Habib, director of the Pell Honors Program and philosophy professor at Salve Regina University, right rear.

That October, I spent a week in residence at the Pell Center as visiting fellow. The next week, we opened a Twitter account, @pubstory. A web site and Facebook page followed, along with a Wikipedia page. We did not, at that point, have even a whisper of a clue that one day we would have a national PBS/SiriusXM Radio show, our own YouTube Channel, podcasts and more...

On November 17, 2012, I gave my first public address for Story, "Where Stories Take Us."  In january 2013, we received our first major grant, from the Rhode Island Council for the Humanities. And on On March 3, 2013, we spelled out our foundational philosophy: Public Story = Policy Change. Which means, we wrote, “Storytelling can powerfully influence how people collectively think and act.” We traced the roots of storytelling to prehistoric peoples: Story, we declared, is hardwired into the human species.

Magura Cave, Bulgaria

On Friday, April 12, 2013, we staged our first major public event: a day-long conference featuring Gary Hart as keynote speaker and Dana Priest receiving the inaugural Pell Center Prize for Story in the Public Square. Plus, a great panel of storytellers.

Jim Ludes, me, Dana Priest, and Sr. Jane Gerety. 

Hart: "We need stories to tell us where we are [and] where we are headed." 

L to R: Moderator Karen Bordeleau, executive editor of The Journal; novelist
 Karen Thompson  Walker;  BU professor Chris Daly; URI political scientist
Shanna Pearson-Merkowitz; WBUR's David Boeri;  and the NAACP's Jim Vincent.

A year later, on April 11, 2014, we staged our second Story conference. The theme was "Moving Images" -- screen storytelling in its many forms, including Hollywood, animation, short-form documentary, TV and long-form documentary. The Emmy-winning actors, screenwriter, producer and creator Danny Strong received the Second annual Pell Center Prize for Story in the Public Square, and other prominent screen storytellers spoke to another sellout audience: Jim Taricani, founder of Rhode Island NBC Channel 10’s celebrated I-Team; Kendall Moore, associate professor of journalism and film media at the University of Rhode Island and an award-winning documentary filmmaker; Agnieszka Woznicka, animation artist and associate professor at the Rhode Island School of Design; and Teja Arboleda, another award-winning documentarian, writer and educator.

Sister Jane and Danny Strong.
New York Times best-selling author Lisa Genova received the third annual Pell Center Prize for Story in the Public Square in a ceremony at the Pell Center on June 4, 2015. 

Lisa Genova accepts the Pell Prize.
 In an experiment that paved the way for our weekly TV/SiriusXM show, we taped Lisa at the Pell Center. A wonderful learning experience that led Jim and me to decide, that fall, to try TV -- in a TV studio, not a wing of the Pell Center, where ambient sound and other factors beyond our control interfered with the business at hand. The episode was never shown or aired -- but, as noted, we learned! (And Lisa, being a good sport, will return to Rhode Island to tape an episode of our show -- in our studio at our flagship station, more on that studio and station further into this post...)

Lisa Genova, right, goes before the cameras.

Not strictly a Story event, the November 1, 2015, launch of my book "Car Crazy: The Battle for Supremacy Between Ford and Olds and the Dawn of the Automobile Age" at the Pell Center brought more attention to the Story program. AND, was a return to the scene of the crime, so to speak. Not to mention a really fun day with really old antique cars. Four were on hand, courtesy of Ambassador Bill Middendorf and the Audrain Automobile Museum: a 1904 Oldsmobile, 1912 Model T Speedster, 1912 Packard and 1893 Duryea: Watch them in action on YouTube. Also on hand was a crew from C-SPAN BOOK TV, which taped the event: Watch it here.

The talk. Longtime friend and screenwriting partner Drew Smith, center.
Drew travelled from California to join us!

My wonderful wife, Yolanda, and me on a 1904 Olds.

Those conversations Jim and I had about moving toward TV reached early fruition in early 2016, when Llewellyn King, host with his wife, Linda Gasparello, of the national show "White House Chronicle" graciously gave us a monthly episode, shot on their set at Rhode Island PBS. Our first show, "A New Partnership for White House Chronicle," broadcast three years ago this month, introduced Story to a much wider audience. Watch that inaugural episode here.

Llewellyn King on our maiden show.

Jim, me, Linda and Llewellyn.
After that explainer introductory show, we featured author August ColeDan Barry, Pulitzer prize-winning New York Times staff writer and best-selling author; Tricia Rose, Brown University professor of Africana Studies and director of Brown's Center for the Study of Race and Ethnicity in America; Hasbro CEO and chairman Brian Goldner; 2016 Pell Prize winner Javier Manzano, photographer and filmmaker; Raina Kelley, managing editor of ESPN's "The Undefeated";  Emmy-winning broadcast journalist David Shuster; and Adam Zyglis, Pulitzer-winning editorial cartoonist. These eight episodes from 2016 can be viewed here.

An early "class photo," of 2016 guests Javier Manzano and Raina Kelley with  Jim,  me and David Marseglia, who played a vital role in launching our show.  The "class photo" has become a fixture of the proceedings. Gianna Gerace took this one.

 How could we NOT turn the tables and have Javier shoot us?! Joining us were
Allison Barbera,  second from left, and Teresa Haas, second from right.

That was the original set. We replaced it, but the off- (and on-) camera fun never went away. Here, Javier was game.
So have been many of our guests -- when appropriate, of course.

And then we took the plunge, working with the fabulous folks at Rhode Island PBS to create, produce and broadcast what is now the weekly Story in the Public Square. We had a consultant custom-design and build a set, we hire the enormously talented Allison Barbera and her team to provide makeup and hair service, and after little (actually, no) rehearsal, Jim and I on January 3, 2017, sat behind it and welcomed our first three guests -- author and professor Tom Nichols, and Native Americans Loren Spears and Christian Hopkins -- for two separate shows that aired only on RI PBS and SiriusXM Satellite Radio -- a southeastern New England TV market, and an international radio one. By this point, Gianna Gerace was handling communications.

Scenes from that first day below -- or if you prefer, watch a behind-the-scenes video I shot and cut.

Loren Spears, center; Christian Hopkins, standing behind her.

Tom Nichols, right, as taping is set to begin.

Jen Bates was in charge of looks on Day One.

When she wasn't shooting stills, Gianna was running the social media.

Andy Gannon and Jen grooming Jim.

Nick Moraites checked the cameras. Today, he is our ace editor.


Our first director, Scott Saracen, readied the control room.

So that began the bigger story of Story in the Public Square. It grew in 2017, when the masterful Erin Demers succeeded Gianna and I began writing an occasional column for The Journal, "Inside Story," and in September 2018, we went national. Meanwhile, we began to podcast the show on several popular channels. We continued to name a Story of the Year. And we continued to award the Pell Prize: After Dana Priest, Danny Strong , Lisa Genova and Javier Manzano came Oscar-nominated filmmaker Daphne Matziaraki in 2017 and Dan Barry in 2018. The seventh honoree, Elizabeth Kolbert, received the prize March 4, 2019, at the Pell Center.

Erin Demers, with some of our crew. That's Mark Smith pointing at Scott!
When Erin Demers left, she was succeeded by Erin Barry, who has done a superior job, too!

Erin Barry, third from right, with crew and director Cherie O'Rourke,
third from left, and guest Susan Rice, center.
So thanks to our Pell Center staff, our RI PBS crew, Allison and Jen, and a roster of extraordinary guests -- more than 150 now -- we are now a national show, seen coast-to coast in most major markets. We also delight in having students and other visitors join us for tapings and meet-and-greets in the Green Room.

Reading across Rhode Island: Guest Elizabeth Rush, seated, with teachers
 and students from Juanita Sanchez Educational Complex, Providence.
We have won two Telly Awards. We have another remarkable lineup for 2020. Broadcast episodes can be viewed here. And you can find your local station and broadcast times here.


We had only a few ideas and a lot of enthusiasm when we started eight years ago. The ideas have grown, but the enthusiasm has never faded. Happy birthday, Story. Here's to many more!